mikayla's blog!! no.3 (how i used to think vs. how i think now)

How I Thought Back Then (5th grade- October, 7th grade) 

  

 In 5th grade and 6th grade, I would always get told that I should move with my mom and that the school would be better without me in it. For a while and to this day I believed them, I would always think I wasn't good enough. I would cry all the time and almost every night. I constantly would analyze myself in the mirror and think I looked awful and that I would never be good enough. I would text and call my friends and they would tell me I was amazing and that I was enough. I put up a guard because I didn't want to get hurt and get told these things anymore, only to realize it was making things worse. It made people think I was rude and didn't want to be anyone's friend.  I wanted to be friends with everyone, and I tried to be nice but it was hard for me at first. I tried my best, but there was always that one person that would always try to knock me down once they saw I was starting to feel better about myself. 

How I Think Now 

 Now I get called rude things and I'm used to it now, but I just nod and laugh it off. I defend myself, you gotta kill 'em with kindness. I try and help people whenever I can, and it makes me happy knowing I'm making a little difference. People think I look mean and sassy, don't get me wrong I can be sassy, but I try my best not to be. Don't be afraid or nervous to say "hi" or "what's up" to me. I try keeping a positive mindset, its all about perspective. You can look at a situation in two different ways, positive and/or negative, it's up to you how you look at the situation you're in. I hope this helped at least one person. Let me know in the comments what my next blog should be on.